My 1st Panic Attack

IT's ALL TURNING INTO A FLOW OF EVENTS AS TO HOW AND WHY IT HAPPENED.

HOLY FUCK IM WEAVING TOGETHER WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY AND IT  WAS PACKED WITH TRIGGERS TO HIT OVER THE THRESHOLD I KEPT THINKING OF. Carbon dioxide, CAFFEINE OMG, stress STRESS stress, extra antidepression ℞ pill, pharmacological triggers, EMOTIONAL DISTRESS, anxious/negative self-talk, mistaken beliefs, drug withdrawal*, dizziness/lightheadedness,gas phobia lol, chronic/serious diseases, 

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Post giant earthquake 

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Post giant panic attack, then mini  PAs

Did I prep it when I was fearful during my first moment at a gas station? When I felt like I HAD to say "I don't want to die"?

Dad noted wisely that I was over stressed because of Bike MS!

Talk to Kuya Paolo

PROVOCATIONS

CAFFEINE AS TRIGGER. I messed up. Lol.  I took both two of Aleve and .. Extra strong Advil after killing 4 espresso shots. Depression medicine. 

exhaling excessive carbon dioxide

FATE

My working brain is going at the speed of how fast a sneeze goes. Biology. 

Babe, be proud! I've found the logical side after digging deeper, like you always say. Passiveness.. 

Stress. Cortisol hormone 

I'm so sensitive to being scared lately 

- ask sisters 

Before: "Why NOW? Why'd this have to happen now before the "greatest ride in my life" and the start of a better life back where I've learned the most? Why did this need to happen? "

Later: "It was for a progressive movement for what I needed to feel, realize and accept."

"I'm YOUNG and HEALTHY