"The bear has stopped hibernating."

Stress eating couldn't even alleviate my lack of an appetite, but the stress just keeps going. I've been out of school for months and in today's morning, the world changed its metaphorical angle & tilt once more.  I feel the parallel to thr stress I felt when all I wanted was to get into Cal since it was where I went to for summer school during high school for two years, and it is of close proximity to home. But now after surpassing my undergraduate sin(x) moments, I'm even more stressed to the point where I feel like I'm in need of crisp clean air and some virgin sangria. 

I need to fight even harder now. Shoot, I'll overdose on extra classes just to beast through my GRE and just to make sure I satisfy all prerequisites for future classes while I still have time.  Need to work hard on lab jobs and volunteer work, but study what I've learned and will learn even harder. Go hard, or go home. 

Thoughts about the question of will I want to ever get married is now out of the window. Ain't got time for dat no mo. Out of sight, out of mind. One of those times when an altered state of mentality just decides to come for a visit, then decides to linger until it becomes unfathomable to forget what you've wanted for so long, so you can't ever revert back to a dormant vacation lifestyle. That chapter has said its au revoir. 

Pip pip, putting more than just some  pep to my step. Life's filled with choices, and I've made mine and realized what I'm searching for and will persevere to hold onto.  Health, medicine, science, technology & education in all their forms towards life improvement & extended progress for myself and all who can make use of it all. 

Note to self, don't forget that life isn't about  working just to feel accomplished, because one day you'll ask yourself if you still see reasons to keep living happily beyond what goes in your resume and if just work will keep you placated.  Ignore the complex logistics in everyday norm, for what's more important is still knowing how to simply LEARN, LIKE, LAUGH,  LOVE & LIVE.